hello!
i wont be blogging here anymore..
so yea.. this is gonna be my last post.. dont miss me.

fi's medley of songs.


你看著我说千万不要爱上我
因为你只会让我伤心别傻了快点喊停
当我和你走在一起就已经决定
不看不听不问也不会放弃
是你让我了解自己
可以为爱那?坚定
只想爱你
好想每天睁开眼睛就能看到你
我知道我偶尔有一点任性
不管你做任何决定
究竟爱我还是逃避
Sorry我还是不会放弃爱你


We do almost everything that lovers do,
and that's why it's hard just to be friends with you.
Everytime your heart is broken by the fool,
I want you to know that it hurts me too.
It's hard to wipe your tears away.
Knowing that you should be with me.
Now tell me why..

Why, why are we still friends,
when everything says we should be more than we are?
and tell me why,
everytime I find someone that I like,
we always end up just being friends.

I would hate for you to find somebody new,
Who you really love, cause it would mean losing you.
But am I a fool girl not to see,
if I'm always scared I'll lose you anyway.
Somehow somewhere I've got to choose.
No matter if it's win or lose.
Now tell me why..

I don't wanna be like your brother,
I don't wanna be your best friend.
I only wanna be your lover.
When will this end?
If i told you that I want to be in your life,
then you could be the woman in mine.
Now tell me
this song has been a part of me since the day i was introduced to it.
the fizzyfish. the one in the water i'd never see in tears.
special.

也许你不会懂
从你说爱我以后我的天空星星都亮了我愿变成童话里
你爱的那个天使张开双手变成翅膀守护你你要相信
相信我们会像童话故事里幸福和快乐是结局
this is cowshit cum bullshit


I wish I can tell you that I'm feeling better everyday
that I didn't hurt when you walked away
but to tell you the truth I can't find my way
That deep inside me I feel like I'm dying
i'm growing up thou.

明天过后如果变成另外一个人
今天是我最后做个爱你的罪人
从此以后忘了你是我最爱的人
不要再一直留在原地回忆这伤痕
时间 原来就是考验
让过去都成了纪念
就像在手心长出了一块死去的茧麻痹了痛的感觉
却还是留在那边
陪着我到未来
继续寻找
下一个永远
希望醒来以后就是全新一个人
日日夜夜不再为爱付出那么深
希望可以忘了你是我最爱的人
能像你一样推开大门就去爱别人
多希望 有天偶然再遇见
我们都各自拥抱 下一个永远

I make believe that you are here
It's the only way I see clear
What have I done
You seem to move on easy

And everytime I try to fly, I fall
Without my wings, I feel so small
I guess I need you, baby
And everytime I see you in my dreams
I see your face, you're haunting me
I guess I need you, baby

I may have made it rain
Please forgive me
My weakness caused you pain
And this song's my sorry

如果有那么一天
你说即将要离去
我会迷失我自己
走入无边人海里
不要什么诺言
只要天天在一起
我不能只依靠
片片回忆活下去
任时光匆匆流去
我只在乎你
心甘情愿感染你的气息
人生几何能够得到知己
失去生命的力量也不可惜
the table is still there.
nothing changed.
nothing will.

As we go on, we remember
All the times we had together
And as our lives change,
Come whatever
We will still be, friends forever
for the battles we fought.
for the times we stood up with every fall.

何必寻找所谓的天堂
原来我因为你
不想再去流浪
情愿平凡
不拥有一切也无妨
有了你在心上
已然是天堂

When I'm stuck in a day
That's gray and lonely
I just stick out my chin
And grin, and say--
The sun will come out
Tomorrow
i miss.
that beautiful stranger in the other world.

"today, i knw why my sch is so fucking poor. Dun even ve toilet papers in the toilet. Joey wana shit also must take tissue from me. Its because Malays dun have to pay school fees ! & my school got lots of Malays ! Im not trying to be racist. dun sue me. Chinese please come to Tampines Secondary okay. So tht my sch will be slightly richer & provide toilet papers for us"
got that from my cousin's blog.. thot it was kinda funny.. asking people not to sue her.. all she wants is toilet paper in her school! haha.. so cute!

i realised just a few nights ago someone has been praying for me... when i first saw it i didnt know whether to smile or to cry.. after i finished reading i decided i'd smile..
aimei was saying people always say live for yourself not others.. but we both agree that sometimes its others we should live for.. i dont see a need to live for myself seriously.. i dont know why.. maybe i'm mad but ya..
haha..

i made someone smile like this x) like this :) and like this :D today!
its been a really long time since i made someone smile i guess?
i wanna make someones day everyday..

i can give you many reasons why i love stephanietanliching

1. because she laughs over the fact that someone asked her why she became ugly. instead of crying at one corner.. she tells the whole world bout it!

2. she has a so darn retarded pinky! if you haven already met it.. its time u see it cause its really retarded!

3. she brings love and joy into my life i swear..

4. she loves being in self denial

5. she wakes up only after i give her 25 missed calls

6. she fell into the drain while being CIC during annual camp in part c!

7. because she just message me on msn
i'm trying to keep it together but i'm falling apart says:
boo i go dream of #### alrdy.. gd night

she's crazy

8. she laughs at every and anything

9. because shes tried she squarts anywhere regardless of whos looking and wheres she

10. because we are both pek cek queens

11. her eyes are closed in 50% of the photos she takes. ok la.. abit exaggerating but it is that bad!

12. because we used to not be able to get along with each other in sec2. but now shes so in love with me!

13. because i know no matter how come come and how many go she's gonna be stuck in my life forever by default

ta da... 13 reasons because its been 13 years since i first knew of her existance. : )

this was meant to be posted on 311205
you know.. for the past hmmm 2years i'd blog on the last day of the year reflecting on the year that had passed. wanted to do the same this year but i realised i had nothing much to blog about really..
i wouldnt say all was ugly... there were beautiful moments.. but yea.. they either didnt last or it was built upon special times in 04.. sentence structure kinda weird but oh wells.. i bid goodbye to gp for quite long already.. so ya.. forgiven..

one thing for sure i left nothing behind.. no matter how stupid it may seem.. i want to bring both the happy and sad with me.. the sad hasnt made me any stronger obviously.. but i guess someday it will.. so i better bring them along or i would have been sad for nothing la.. thats stupid..

many came and two left..

entering nus wasnt the best thing that happened this year but i know its gonna be one of the best thing that'll happen in my life cause i got to know a handful who really put actions into words when they say they care.. school brought me closer to trudi too.. i'm so glad after all these years we can now talk to each other on the phone till the wee hours talking bout what seems like nothing but in actual fact is everything..

did alot of reminiscing of the previous years because i really do miss those insane days marching at safti.. trying to stuff leaves and twigs into our camo deluding ourselves they cant see us.. starching of uniforms and burning of collars.. the we must sit straight even thou the sirs ask us to relax days (stupid huh).. the long walk into amoy quee.. ar.. so much more.. its been 3years and i miss it all the same.. also.. the training days which were even more insane.. we trained hard but no one lost weight.. only we know why..

no more tears . hello 06 . i didnt like you 05

Do you remember me
I sat upon your knee
I wrote to you with childhood fantasies
Well I'm all grown up now
And still need help somehow
I'm not a child but my heart still can dream
So here's my lifelong wish

My grown up Christmas list
Not for myself but for a world in need
No more lives torn apart
That wars would never start
And time would heal all hearts
And everyone would have a friend
And right would always win
And love would never end, no
This is my grown up Christmas list

As children we believe
The grandest sight to see
Was something lovely wrapped beneath the tree
But Heaven only knows
That packages and bows
Can never heal a heartached human soul

No more lives torn apart
That wars would never start
And time would heal all hearts
And everyone would have a friend
And right would always win
And love would never end, no
This is my grown up Christmas list

What is this illusion called the innocence of youth
Maybe only in our blind belief can we ever find the truth
No more lives torn apart
That wars would never start
And time would heal all hearts
And everyone would have a friend
And right would always win
And love would never end, no
This is my grown up Christmas list
This is my only lifelong wish
This is my grown up Christmas list

kelly clarkson - grown up christmas list

: )

hello..
do you all have any idea what a terrible person i am?
i am the worse kinda friend anyone can possibly have..
to all whos been here for me all these while.. i love you..
i am aware i have been selfish.. i've been affecting the moods of everyone around me.. i've been unreasonable.. i've been the worse person to spend your time with.. but please dont give up on me alright?
i promise i wont cower anymore..
i am gonna keep walking forward..
to those who feared how i have been behaving and hence try to meet me less.. i love you too..
thank you so much for helping me see who are those whom i should treasure and put before anyone else and who to not.

in this ugly world there are some kinda love that will never change.. its not the kind you have for the person you think about every breathing moment neither is it the kinda love you have for the one you selflessly put before yourself..
its the kind you have for the people you dont need to see everyday but know they still care.. its the kind you have for the people who'll be there when you feel like the world just walked out on you. that wont change :)

hello! i'm back! : )
i dont know whats with the sudden urge to blog again... boredom i suppose..
i am b o r e d!
hahs.. i rather be bored den be schooling thou..
schools starting the the 9th... one more mth i know but haiyaaaaa..
the thought of it is just so haiyaaa..

the past few days have been good... : )
met up with the almost all the people who were so part of my laughters those days back in school..
last sat with half of t29..everyones still the same : )


today with the dearest dearest people from sc..
i really miss those days.. hehs.. oh wells...
its so comforting to see that after so many years we can still talk and laugh like how it used to be.. some things never change.. they make my heart : ) inside out..

and den again.. i guess those things that change are changes for the better?
"Not everything that happens to me is good but everything that happens is for my good."
koped it from jookai's blog.. not sure where he got it from anyway..
so enlightening yea?

i wanna cut hair!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
i think its getting from disgusting to super disgusting!!
many thanks to people who like to tie small knots with my hair!
my answer to people asking me when am i gonna cut my hair is before i meet crystle.. haha..
oh wells.. i really wanna cut hair already...

ok.. enough crap...
goodnight all!
: )

promised jocelyn i'd put it up.. so yup.. everyone reading this.. go for it ok?
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i want stephanietanliching and the whole wide world to know that stephanietanliching is the best and i love stephanietanliching!
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was just thinking bout it.. much as i hated being in cj last time.. given a choice.. i'll wanna go thru jc life all over again
--
my thursdays timetable is now 9am to 6pm :(
--
i think i'm hardworking today
--
So, impossible as they may seem
You've got to fight for every dream
Cause who's to know which one you let go
Would have made you complete

Well for Me, It's waking up beside you
To watch the sunrise on your face
To know that I can say I love you
In any given time or place
--
thats about it.. goodnight

CORS bloody sucks! nus ought to do something bout it.. the admin stuff and the students log on to the same cors website.. stupid can? what if something goes wrong.. which it really did la.. den the admin stuff wont be able to do anything bout it.. bidding for lectures is a waste of time.. and balloting for tutorials just dont make sense la..

oh ya.. dropped my geog module.. :(
my timetable..
monday:: 4hrs of lecture.. either 10to2 or 12to4 or 2to6
tuesday:: lecture from 12 to 1.30 and den tutorials from 2 to 4
thursday:: lectures/tutorials from 9 to 1.30 and.. den another tutorial from 3 to 4
friday:: lecture from 10to12 and den tutorial from 12 to1

yup.. thats about it.. kinda pleased with it..
fen! thurs 1.30 to 3!!
van! post your timetable soon alright?
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dinner with the AFs today:) tricia van and steffie..
AFs presence seem to be shrinking.. but den AFs will never shrink la..
i kinda miss the people in cj.. no one in particular.. just.. you know.. the people in cj.. ya.. they're different from the people in bizad.. i dont know how to explain the difference.. but yea..
i miss looking forward to breaks.. miss making matilda run down to queue up at the yongtaufu store for me.. miss eating behind mr ho's back.. miss skipping gopal's lessons.. miss climbing up the mountain high stairs to the chem lab.. miss being with the AFs everyday.. haha.. but i still dont miss cj.. it still is a shithole.. hehs..
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i so have to post this ugly thingcow.. haha.. steffie did it.. k la.. ugly but cute..
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yy: huh? den what kind of examples do you give?
me: you can use the ku klux klan...
yy: huh? what?
me: ku klux klan!
yy: huh? dont know la.. kling klang klung i know la!

she is so heading for doom..

cute right?!?!?!!??!!!!! ping phay's daughter!
to think we even thought of throwing her if he ever asks us to do front crawls again..
heres another one.. super cute too!!!! yy's cousin!

spent our whole monday babysitting her and it was pure madness! even more tiring den training you know? it was sucha joy to see her play thou.. totally adorable
oh.. i think i can draw quite cute cats.. : )

oh.. let me share some stuff i learnt from my statistics lecturer today...
select should be pronounced as c-lack
subscription should be pronounced as subscribe-tion
"if you are interest in the data..." so said DR chan yiu mun

::PROF to be fiona lee says goodnight to all::

its been a week since school started.. and hmmm.. ok.. i dont know what to say bout it actually... dont hate it definitely.. but ya.. i dont like it either.. hehs.. i skipped like three quarters of oweek.. got all the modules i wanted.. no actually.. i din.. i got all the modules i could bid for.. i wanted to take psychology as one of my unrestricted modules but ya.. the bid point was too high... i ended up take geog instead and i'm so so excited bout it.. wahaha... natural hazards!! earthquakes.. tsunamis.. volcanos..typhoons.. landslides.. floods.. fire.. kinda what the hell but nvm la... i can take the more important modules next semester.. i remember telling steffie i wanna predict tusnamis in future.. taking this module shall be my first step! i'm looking forward more to my geog module den my business core module.. i think i'm gonna die in the business faculty.. god bless me..
triciaspeckylow!!! i just thought of you! haha.. i hope god no longer blast you:)
steff!!! yes yes yes! i wanna go eat pohpiahs and get scoldings again! haha! weekday can?! quick k?

to you who never fails to get out of trouble within 1min after annoying me..
to you who loves me all the same thou i'm a total auntie in the making..
to you who calls me obasan..
to you who sarcrifices your sleep for me..
to you who will do anything to touch my heart so deep..
to you who t r i e s hard to tolerate my bad temper..
to you the only one who succeeded in making me cut down on my salt intake..
to you who never fails to snore and sneeze into my face..
to you who pant for 5mins after playing 30seconds of catching..
to the you i so love.. i love you